Summer so far

This is just a little of my crazy summer that I have taken on. I have left much out for my own good of not having to relive it (either it was boring, I can't remember because I got a concussion, or it just wasn't important to this certain blog), but this is the more interesting things so far.

So my summer started out by going to see two of my new great friends graduate from college. I met them in the fall of 2013 and we became so close. Seeing them walk across the stage and graduate from college was bitter sweet, even for me. I knew it was the last time I would see them on a regular basis and it was hard. After they walked across the stage and the ceremony was finished I met them both in the lobby. Of course, I was sobbing at the fact that two people I connected with and told my story to first weren't going to be there for me every day any longer. It was hard…. But I knew and know that it isn't a goodbye for us, its just a see you soon!

In the next few days I traveled alongside my fellow teammates to Vancouver Island, Canada for  a missions trip. We served a local church, elders in the area, an Elementary School, and a homeless shelter. This trip opened my eyes so much about how much God is using me to help others lives. The homeless shelter was the thing that changed my heart the most. We served them a hot breakfast, which they normally didn't get, and they were very appreciative of that. I sat down with several people and just had conversations with them and shared about why we were there and how God is there for them even though I didn't believe it at that point either. Later that day we went to downtown Victoria, Canada and I saw a man and his daughter that I had an intimate conversation with at the shelter. He was so happy to see me and I was happy to see him and his daughter. They were just so kind I could not believe it! I miss Canada and I so want to go back soon.

Finally it was time for me to return home for the summer. It isn't something I enjoy, just simply I am not happy at home. A lot of my depression, anxiety, and ptsd stem from "home" for myself. Also, my depression seems to get worse when I am home. However, I was willing to come home to see my grandfather and my nephew whom was just about to be born. A week exactly after I came home from Canada my nephew Hunter Allen was born. He has kept me in a some what sane state while being at home in-between arguments pushing me down.

Here recently I visited one of my friends whom graduated in Pennsylvania! I had a blast while I was there. Not because we did much (trust me we napped a lot), but because we both understand each other and just the time of fellowship and knowing the struggle of depression pushing down on us. We walked around Doylestown, PA, New Hope, NJ, and a couple other places I don't quite remember haha. But it never failed that every day there would be a nice 1-2 hour nap squeezed in there. It is nice to know that you have friends who love and care about you no matter what you do to be with each other, even if its napping haha.

Well, summer is coming to a close and I could not be happier that I am returning to college soon. I miss my school friends and I am excited to be going back to a place that can support me through Jesus! Cov Cov I'm coming back soon :)